As I said in a previous entry, this most recent visit to London was going to be particularly poignant as it brought back memories of my time with Heckler. Just under 4 months ago, I faced one of my biggest fears on the London Eye, with Heckler by my side. This visit, our hotel room had views over the Eye. Forty has this uncanny ability to ask the sort of questions that have me searching my soul for the answers. He knew my feelings about Heckler and understood them. And once again, I shed tears over Heckler, thinking about what had been and what might have been.
Heckler and I still email and text on and off. He’s been in hospital lately with stress related symptoms. I can’t help but feel somewhat responsible.